My First Ramadhan ! Alhamdulilah!

La Ilaha IllAllah

AssalamAlykum !!!

RAMADHAN MUBARAK!!!!!! RAMADHAN KAREEM !

May Allah have mercy upon us and may He cleans and purify our hearts and souls this Ramadhan so that we can continue our path in this dunya with full force imaan and tawqwah AMEEN!

My sisters in Islam, and my friends I hope you are all well.

Since my arrival in North Kentucky, it has been yet a uneventful one (Alhamdulillah), though I have been getting myself hurt more now, but maybe that is because I’m just clumsy. Other than that, I feel quite lonely sometimes. Lonely, but never alone of course! I have my Rabb, Allah. Today I feel different. Perhaps it is because it is my very first Ramadhan and many more to come inshAllah.

Last night I learnt Al-Qursi and realised I know how to read Arabic MashAllah. I am not a pro (yet) inshAllah I plan on becoming one! But it did take a while. I practised reading and reciting over and over and at first I thought to myself, WOW! How am I ever going to get through this? All I see right now is a bunch of Arabic letters and symbols. I said Bismillah and began to recite. My husband is from Saudi, so his native tongue is Arabic, and he was the one who ever so patiently MashAllah, dealt with me (lol!).

an hour and a half later MashAllah I learnt it, but now I have to memorize it! After reciting this ayat I wasn’t tired at all and it was 3am!!! It actually gave me a second wind of energy and I was able to stay up for sahur and fajr.

Ramadhan is a time (so I’ve been told) to reflect on yourself and as a Muslim. Have you been fulfilling your obligation to Allah, your Creator? Have you been praying your 5 daily prayers on time? Have you been doing any voluntary fasts? What about the way you treat your parents? I have answered all these questions but I feel like there is still many more.

This Ramadhan I plan on asking Allah to forgive me for my sins and my shortcomings, to cleanse and purify my heart and soul, and most importantly to help me develop my imaan and tawqa to a greater level that I will be able to change as a whole and to be a better Muslim.

Since coming to Islam, I have learnt so much about myself, and I have felt at peace (for the most part 😉 ) I put my trust in Allah (though, I’m still learning to completely put my whole trust in him). I have had a lot of time to reflect and to talk to Allah from the heart. I understand how blessed I am and how I must thank Allah everyday and ask to become more like our dear Prophet (saw), or at least like Khadijah 🙂

I’m learning that alone time is not to feel lonely and sad. I have my husband to talk to but nobody can really ever understand what I feel in my heart except Allah. Nobody can fill my heart up with food and nurture as much as Allah, He is the almighty one who knows everything I feel. So, perhaps my move to North Kentucky is meant for me to get closer to Allah, AllahHualam. I must use this month in Ramadhan to feel closer to Allah and to ask him for guidance and persistence to fight through this crazy dunya and the shaitan.

I look forward to expanding my blog and may we have more followers soon inshAllah.

May Allah bless you and guide you on your journey in Ramadhan and the months following, and may you all continue to ask Allah to seek more knowledge so we can spread the love of Islam.

JazakAllah Kheyr.

Khadijah.

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